It's that time again for my 3-month follow up visit to check and see what the status of my cancer is. I've had the appointments scheduled for a while now, but I guess I've been in a bit of denial. I hadn't made all of the other arrangements until just recently.
I had planned on driving down with a friend on the morning of the tests and returning the same evening, but due to details those plans had to change. So yesterday morning I was busy finalizing some of the details of the plans. The reality of "every 3 months for TWO years" hit hard. I'll admit that I was a bit teary eyed by the end and was even feeling a wee bit sorry for myself.
If you've been reading my blog for long, you probably already know that I'm really not good at endurance events. I'm much better at the sprinting stuff, and yet I know that one of the lessons I'm to learn in "all this" is to endure well.
And, just like with all things ... for every trial there's a blessing, right? So ... where's the blessing?
Yesterday afternoon one of my very favorite people came over to visit. We were talking about my upcoming 3 month checkup and she shared with me some personal things and some personal views. And, I think I'll adopt them! Maybe you'll want to also.
Every 3 months for me ... maybe for you, it will be every year during your annual exam ... I will go for my cancer checkups expecting a clean bill health and feeling and expressing gratitude for the answers. I won't stress about it, or feel sad or overwhelmed about it. I'm just going to think of it as an opportunity to be thankful.
Aren't we blessed to live in this day?
It really is interesting how just that simple conversation with my friend was enough to turn my thoughts from feeling completely overwhelmed and burdened by every 3 months for TWO years to really thankful that the doctors are taking such good care of me. It was just the reminder that I needed. I am thankful that my friend took time out of her very busy day yesterday to stop by to visit, and I'm especially thankful that she lives the kind of life that makes her such a great example to me. I hope you all have a friend like her!
PS In case you're wondering I have tests next week and the following week. I should have all the tests results back by March 16th. I'll keep you all posted. I fully anticipate everything will be the same, but will you keep me in your prayers? I can always use the insurance. :)