Notice all the books ... and the xylophone? :)

Sweet Assurances

Today Ryan worked super hard in therapy, almost as if he wanted to reassure me that things will be okay.

We worked on rolling and when he was on his tummy, he actually lifted his head. It was wonderful! I sure love that little man. I'm thankful for the opportunity to notice every milestone. I wish I had known not to take them for granted with the other children.

Raw Reality

Today I was wondering about Barnes & Noble waiting for Jessica. I innocently wandered into the special needs section. Most of the books really didn't relate to Ryan. They were either about ADHD or Autism. But one caught my eye. The Horse Boy: A Memoir of Healing.

Healing. That's what I want for Ryan.

As I quickly scanned it I felt an overwhelming flood of emotions. A longing to make his body whole. To make life easier for him. Perhaps to make life easier for me too.

Their quest for healing took them to Mongolia. Mongolia. What if Mongolia had the answers for Ryan? Could I get him there? Would I take him there?

For a brief moment, this national bestselling book stirred up all the emotions and fears that I keep so locked away. Fearing a complete melt down, I quickly put it all away, crossed my arms in a self-protective hug and reassured myself that it will all be okay.

It will be okay.

Late tonight, Johnathon decided to join in the decorating.
He sure did a great job!

Happy 4th of July!

David decorated the house today for Independence Day.


Didn't he do a great job?

So, cute!

Deborah is really excited to wear her new shoes to church today. You can't see them really well, but they have little butterflies on them. I can't believe how big she's getting. Time is really going by much too fast.